A few years ago, I was going through a major transition and having such a difficult time understanding the spiritual shift that was occurring in me. Someone recommended that I read a book called "The Four Agreements". I don't really read books because my attention span outside of art is equivalent to that of a fruit fly near wine. So, the idea of reading an entire book was truly overwhelming. I got the audio book and listened over a few days as I traveled to and from my daily endeavors.
The book was poignant, simple, provocative and honestly life changing. I don't know that I was ready for the wisdom the book had to offer at the time. Transition is distracting and much of what I heard was lost in translation. By the end of 2017, I was spiritually drained making it very difficult to produce work and practice proper self-care. I deemed 2017 "The Year of Letting Go".
After a very stubborn bout with pride, fear and over protectiveness of myself, I started to see a massage therapist, energy worker and intuitive life coach AKA Magician named, Gabriela of Catalyst Massage & Coaching; who recommended that I read...you guessed it "The Four Agreements". I decided to read the book again. It was a completely different experience this time around. Half of it, I didn't even recall reading the first time. Learning to adapt these four principles to my everyday life has truly been a healing experience.
Each session with Gaby has been challenging (in a good way). This work has forced me to face myself in ways that I never have before. Many things that I was in denial about or not even aware of have come to surface and I am dealing with them head on. Love, money, career, family, relationships, and more have all been a little stunted because of wounds that never fully healed. In addition to the agreements, I am making healthier decisions overall. I've had to make a lot of changes in my home and work space through the art of Feng Shui and spiritual guidance. My lifestyle has changed drastically; from the food I eat to the company I keep. I am naturally a very intuitive person and I know I'm heading in the right direction with proper guidance and self care.
The art work I’ve been producing in the last few months is very different than anything I’ve created before in a very cleansing way. I feel clearer, cleaner and happier. I continue to see Gaby for maintenance as she keeps me on track when I start to fall off and holds me accountable. In letting go, I’ve realized I am making room for newer, healthier everything. I am no longer holding on to anything that brings me pain, confusion or sorrow. Healing is necessary for me to live my best life, so this is what I will continue to do.
If you are feeling pain in any way whether it is physical, mental, spiritual, or emotional, you might need some healing. Healing takes time, takes courage, takes letting go and acceptance. We are all a work in progress, we are all a canvas, what we paint is truly up to us. I'm so grateful to Catalyst for getting me through some of the most difficult life work I've had to do yet. When I say I am better because of the work I've dedicated myself to, I mean it with all my heart. If you are in or near CT, willing to travel to Stamford and you are truly ready to make change for the better, call Catalyst. The only way you will regret it is if you are not ready and willing to heal.